2nd WOD of sectionals

Ok.. so after the first WOD on Saturday, I had a decision to make.   Should I quit?   After 3 months of preparing, I am not able to compete at a level that I  expect or I am use to.   I am not able to hang with the guys that I feel that I am able to beat.   I wanted to quit but I had a constant reminder in the back of my head..."Will I regret it if I quit?"   I know that I can't do my best but should I try anyway?   I also thought that if my lungs fail on the rope... I could really get hurt.   I was frightened.   It was not only a fear of failure but failure and more injury.  We had a break so Bruce and I decided we should go back and do ice baths.(separately) By the way, if someone ever offers to run you an ice bath... punch them in the face and run.  It was miserable!  I think that I made it 4 minutes at one time and that was it.   After the ice bath, I decided that I would at least try the workout at a medium intensity and quit if I needed to. 

Due to my stellar 74th finish in the sandbag run, I was in the first male heat to do the rope climb.   Here was the WOD... 6 Deadlifts fingers open.   12 over the box jumps(jumping completely over a 20" box with about a 24" base).    1 20' Rope Climb.   5 Rounds for time.   My gameplan... pacing is the key so that my breathing does not get out of control.   Round 1:  Deadlifts feel great.   Box Jumps are tough by a did them slow to keep the breathing right.   Rope climb:  I feel like I am better than average on the rope climb but I have one flawed weakness.  I do not know how to climb with my feet.   It's all upper body.   I pull quick and get it over with.   That worked for me on the first pull.   However, by round 3, the toll on my wind that the box and the deadlifts put on me inhibited my ability to climb at the speed and efficiency that I am use to.  My goal is to get up quick to get it over with.  Round 5 comes around and I don't have a bad time.  I have paced really well so I decide to push the last round a little.(bad idea)   I get about 3 feet from the top and some guy grabs me from below and holds on. (figuratively)   I can't move.  There is no more.  I fight but it just doesn't work and down I come.   I give myself about a minute and I can't even pull myself off the ground.   OH CRAP!  I am done.  I am about to get a DNF and there is nothing I can do about it.    I try to fight it but it is no good!   I look back and Renee, Bruce, Josh, Casey, Dawn and everyone are yelling trying to get me through it.   The only thing I can think is how disappointed they are going to be in me when I can't finish my rope climb...

to be continued.